The List

          The list, there are so many lists. The to-do-list, the wish list, the grocery list, the Christmas list and I am sure that you have your own special list too. However, I want to talk to you about my list, the very list that I didn’t want but the list that would matter the most because it came from Him.

          God, had blessed me with a wonderful job that provided more than my needs. It was a job that I was completely new at, a job that I had to completely rely upon Him to equip me with the knowledge and understanding to successfully do the job. The previous job that I had I was completely confident in, I was experienced and one might even say distinguished in. It was the one thing in my day to day life that I knew I was good at, which is why when God had a change of plan for me. I was skeptical. It is difficult to move from knowing every aspect of a job to nothing. Once I accepted the new job and journey I realized that it was just not the job that God had for me but a plan. This new job required me to be on the road 5 days a week traveling sometimes 3000 – 4500 miles a month. It required me to meet new people develop new relationships and market a product. I love people, and people was the favorite part of my job and what I later found out, people is why God provided me the job. I wasn’t in the field too long before I realized that “people” were hurting, hungry for love and attention and in need of prayer and with all of the traveling that I was doing what better to do than to pray for those in need. What I found most appealing was the look in their eyes when I would say in conversation, I ll be praying about that for you. Although, they may have not had a personal relationship with God, I am sure by the look in their eyes that they knew I did. It was like a complete revelation one day when I returned to my car after telling someone that I would remember them in my prayers that God spoke to my spirit and said, this is why I have you in this job. Now, while my main task was to promote products for a company my direct task for Him was to encourage and pray for those in need. From that day on I looked at my job differently. I became more passionate about it because I was not only working for a company I was working for Him. When I realized that,  and I let go of the fear of learning everything about my new job and I released the fear of not knowing every aspect then came the knowledge and the wisdom I needed to perform for my company. Isn’t it funny how when we truly turn things over to God, that He will reveal to us what He has planted in us.

          So now, on to the list. Sometimes we forget who we are and why we are here and why we are doing what we are doing and I am no exception. About a year into my job my company changed things up a bit. They gave us a new list of specific people to see and wanted them seen weekly. When I got my list I was ever so disappointed because I had never heard of the majority of those on the list. Then when I talked to a team member and they had shared their list with me my disappointment turned into anger and frustration, for he had the perfect list. His list included those very people that I had worked on so diligently building relationships with and now he has them. Doesn’t it always seem to be that way others always get the perfect list, or the perfect location, or the perfect everything. After talking with my team member I hung up the phone and I could feel that little tingle creep up the back of my head as that is what anger and aggravation will cause. I was so angry, I was hateful and almost to tears and I grumpily told my family that I was off to bed, which is where God gave me His list.

          I slung the covers back beat my pillow and plopped into bed. I jerked the covers around me as tears began to sneak out of my eyes and down my cheeks as if they were almost afraid or uncertain weather or not to flow. I just wanted to punch something and then there it was, that still small voice, it was Him oh and was I glad that He was present because I had some things to get straight with Him but before I could voice those things here is what He spoke to my spirit.

          “Rachelle, didn’t I give you this job?” Yes, Lord. Don’t you drive a nice vehicle that you don’t pay for? Yes, Lord. Aren’t you provided free gas and insurance on that vehicle? Yes, Lord. “I thought we agreed that day in your car that you are working for Me, not just a company and that you are ministering to the needs of my people not just promoting products.” Yes, Lord I remember that. Well, let’s talk about this list. Don’t you know that I am in control of every aspect of your life? Yes, again Lord. Then wouldn’t that mean that I am in control of the list that you received?” Yes, Lord. Hmm, then have you ever thought that I may have given this list to you because I need you to be in their life. Tears now flowing, heart broken, Yes, Lord. Also, Rachelle if you are worried about doing well on the business side of this for the company that you work for, don’t you think that I will get more glory by giving you an undesirable list that looks hopeless? Yes, Lord. Then remember that your are ultimately working for Me, do your job and I’ll do mine.

          Wow, that night I laid in my bed and cried not tears or sorrow but tears of joy. I apologized to Him, for getting my eyes off of Him and letting the things of this world tempt and taunt me. When I recap that night in my mind I realize that the list He provided me with that night, the list that reminded me who He is and what He is capable of was undoubtedly list the greatest of all.